something's really wrong with me...
just came back from eating Mac with my dear,Jielin (a.k.a. Faith)
felt really super bloated & the next thing i knew,
i vomited... ew... ...

dont know whats happening to me this week...
i feel full even though i didnt take my breakfast & lunch,
i have no appetite to eat at all...
just looking at the food, im already full :(

is it because of JC+WORK??
i really dont know...
im tired, super duper tired...
i can fall asleep just standing, like just now on the bus...

on a lighter note,
2nd day of JC life at JJC is fun and a little -.- ...
today had Mass Dance...
my partner looked lost and a bit blur
hahas i think i might be looking like that too...
didnt really enjoyed as i was super tired from yesterday's work + waking up at 5am...
anyway JJC rocks!
*hope i would be able to get my subject combinations!!!

today in JJC hall when i was listening to the SDP talk,
among the many students sitting infront of me,
i saw a guy's backview...
and my heart missed a beat...
i thought it was HIM...
but that guy turned his head sideways and i saw his face
it wasnt HIM...

i am waiting for really someday
when i can really really keep my feelings about HIM in the bottem of my heart...
but it would be really hard too

because of you, i fell in love with basketball
because of you, i started drinking Pokka Green Tea
because of you, i just cant get into a relationship
because of you, i am scared.........................................
i dont know, i really dont...
im just waiting for a special someone to come
and unlock my heart,
to let go of my feelings for you
and accept a new beginning ... ...  

staying at grandma's house these days...
really enjoy the time with her (:
but...
sometimes im really frustrated and tired,
of her scolding the maid = conflict...
something that i cant resolve at all...

i dont know why..
but i just went straight to the toilet &
started crying when the conflict started ):
cant they just STOP it??!!

been quarrelling with sis these days & weeks
just frustrated...
cant we just stop annoying one another?
haix...
just praying hard that everything would be fine...
*fingers crossed*

FINALLY...

met dear today and went down to SAJC open house(:
haix...
good school is really good school...
okay,im not making any sense -.-
anyway its a great school!
there is a chapel in the school!!!
dearest was so happy and excited when she saw the chapel..
hahas(:

after that we took a bus and went down to dear's workplace at Holland(:
she still had some time before starting work,
we sat down and ordered some things to eat..
i ordered what she recommended, cranberry drink,
while she had a peppermint drink and some wages(:

the drink was super nice,tasted like bubble tea - healthy one :P
dear's one tasted like peppermint sweet, cool and refreshing(:

had a really nice and long talk with her (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
really missed her!!!!!! hahas (:

i havent been so relax and happy till today...(:

dear is really a GREAT person...
everything about her is great...
really hope she would be able to find the right person,
who would really cherish her...
* a word to all guys:
she is really fabulous & priceless(: you would be REALLY lucky to be with her(: *

tmr i'll be meeting Eeling to discuss with her...
hope i'll make the right choice and get into the JC that i want(:

RESULTS OUT

gotten back my results yesterday
not too bad at least i did my best(:

now going out to meet my brother,Will (:
need to talk to him about my results and i need some advice...

later in the evening meeting Vanessa, Aaron, Christ and Ryan(:
gonna have dinner at novena then proceed to United Square for Ben's and Jerry's ICECREAM(:(:

gotta go to the church before that to say my thanks and blessings(:

now i can only hope that i would be able to get accepted into the JC i want,
and the same JC as dear<3

FEELINGS , THOUGHTS

have anyone felt really really scared before?
its those feeling that its as if you are going to lose everything what you have in jst a blink of an eye...

the o'level results are coming out on next monday,
which is 3 more days to go...
*cross my fingers*
good luck to everybody!
*me too!*

today i am supposed to go out with Wanlin and Heidy,
to see Huiling at her workplace...
but now here i am,at home
know why??
i am busy doing cards, chocolates, jelly (hope it comes out successfully)
for them and many other people whom i cherish a lot(:
these all requires $$$
thus, i am almost broke= NO $

haix...but what to do?
i love them too much
hahas! <3

later in the evening going to see WAYNE!!!!
Im SOOOO happy and excited (:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:(:
going to take lotsssss of pictures(:

~ a best friend is someone who understands your actions and who you really are,
they will not misunderstand you just for some small reasons..

i miss Dear...
i want to tell dear everthing that what has happened
i just cant keep it to myself anymore
crying helps but im tired, really tired already

A NEW YEAR 2010!!!

Today was quite a day to start off for the NEW YEAR 2010

woke up at 8.45 and started doing my raspberry jelly slice..
i had to crush more than 20 pieces of plain biscuits,
using my Bare Hands!!!!
it hurt...it really did ):
by the time i was done, my fingers were already as red as a tomato -.-
i put it into the baking tin and placed it into the fridge
then i did the 2nd and 3rd layer
the 2nd layer was a success, but not the third....
the 3rd layer was supposed to be jelly but i added too much water,
so, it became syrup water...
zzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz

had to throw all my hard work away in the end ): ): ):

after that went out with my family and cousins to eat Ribeye Steak (:
i didnt eat it because i wasnt really a fan of beef,
had Chapgrill chicken instead :D
YUM!!!

proceeded on to my aunt's house(:
baked 2 cakes there and had steamboat for dinner!!
:D :P